Happy Thanksevening!

I ate turkey 4 days in a row.  I drove over 300 miles in one day.  I worked 6 closing shifts at Job #2.  I made it through my first of the big holidays.

It wasn't what I pictured.  It wasn't how I've ever spent Thanksgiving, but in the words of my therapist, "Start new traditions" right?  Right.  Instead of being with the family you've spent the last 29 Thanksgivings with, hang out with some friends and their families.  Nevermind all the couples and kids you  keep staring at.  We ate all day, lounged in front of the TV, giggled with the kids, made a mess in the kitchen, and ate until we moaned in pain.  I felt welcomed, and loved, and somehow I felt I was exactly where I was supposed to be.  I was only sorry that I had to leave due to Job #2. 

Job #2 has been on my mind a lot lately.  I love it.  I don't need it.  I don't HAVE to have it.  Well, don't get me wrong, the extra money helps and it definitely gave me something to do to avoid lonely nights.  I've just noticed that I'm not giving 100% to either job, and my body and mind just can't handle the full load.  I gave my two weeks notice yesterday.  It was the hardest 2 small paragraphs I've ever written.  I cried for a minute before printing my letter.  Sitting alone at my computer, staring at those words, I thought about all the amazing people I've met and all the friendships I've gained.  I know that place inside and out, I helped open it.  It's my second family.  Sometimes it's even easier to face than Job #1.  I wondered why it was so hard for me to let go.  I know it would relieve me of some stress and give me a little bit more free time, but I realized it was just another thing I was changing.  So much change.  Is anything going to stay the same?  Is anything supposed to?  Shouldn't I be used to change by now?

Even though the day is over, I'm still thankful for so much.  I'm thankful for my friends who make me feel like family.  I'm thankful for a warm house to call my very own.  I'm thankful for my understanding parents who aren't pressuring me when I tell them I don't want to celebrate any holidays this year.  I'm thankful for gravy....on EVERYTHING.  I'm thankful for the 2 years and 4 months and all the memories I've had at Job #2.  I'm thankful that I made it through Thanksgiving.